I am in a big time slump. I'm not really sure where it came from; it just suddenly seemed to sneak up and drag me to the very bottom of the barrel to hide out until it's over. Until what's over? Yeah, I'm not really sure. I'm going to have to come up for air long before this deployment is over, far before school starts, and even before the end of the week - by morning would be convenient.
My first clue that my slump was coming was my longing to just stay in fricken bed. I have no motivation for anything. I don't want to exercise. I certainly don't want to eat right. I don't want to brush Hazel's hair. I don't want to grocery shop. I don't want to put the dishes in the dishwasher. I don't even want to shower. I just want to be. I'm even having a hard time talking with Daniel on the phone. I miss him so, so much, and yet when he calls, I don't have much to say, and just talking seems like a chore. Again, not because I don't want to, but b/c it just feels overwhelming.
Hoping tomorrow is a better day...
